And I'm not certain that is because there was nothing to say, as much has happened. On the other hand things have remained the same. Probably other outlets for my feelings and other crap going on have taken over in that regard.
It should be noted that when I started this blog, there was virtually no one to share what was going on. Most people didn't want to associate with a crackhead. Stereotypes, stigmas and the bad reputation many who hit a rock as often as I did and do tend to keep people at a distance.
In some cases, hundreds of miles distant.
Thankfully that is not really the case anymore.
Many people have accepted me for who and what I am and judge me more on what I do. That is in contrast with what many may think I do in and because of my bad habit. Many bad habits is probably more accurate.
Not to be snooty, but show me someone who says they don't have any bad habits, and my guess is that they are lying. And there is no judgement in that, it just seems to be the way things are for all of us.
The other part of why there hasn't been an entry here in some time though may speak with my hiding from myself the lack of progress in a way. This of course is the fact that I still see the Dude (or Dudes) on a fairly regular basis.
As time has passed more people have discovered who I am. Some by my design and some though circumstance. It did become uncomfortable to talk with some people about this all. Another part of the compartmentalization that comes with keeping secrets.
Trust also has played a role in this all. I really don't think waving a flag about this all would be good idea though.
Recording this in the past has been a record of what was going on or what I may have been going through. That really needs to be maintained for the future. In many respects this is still a safe place to put this information. For me and others who might be in my shoes or know someone who is here as well.
The thing is that not talking about what I have or haven't been doing isn't exactly hiding anything from anyone except for one person.
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